aririn

Friday, September 19, 2003

So.. the day has finally come. My cousin's getting married this sunday! And my family's here, obviously. There was a little misunderstanding though. My bro said he'd sent me an SMS telling me about their arrival time. I guess I didn't get it coz I've always thought that they'd be arriving today. So, yesterday, I wanted to see my bf for the last time this week coz I won't be able to see him while my parents are here. But when I was supposed to meet my bf, my bro called my cell saying that they're already at the airport O_o;; I was so shocked. So, as soon as I met my bf, I told him I had to go home right away to clean up my place and erase his existence from my apartment. I miss my bf now. I wish my parents weren't so narrow-minded so he wouldn't be my secret bf. My mom even told me today over dinner, about somebody she knew who married an abusive WHITE guy, so she escaped back to indonesia. And then she said even people from the same race can't hold their marriage together, interracial marriage's gotta be worse. What the hell's that supposed to mean??
I really don't know what to do with my relationship. It's already bound to be rocky. At least I don't have to deal with his parents because they're so neutral. I'm still debating with myself about staying in the relationshi or letting go. One thing I discover with my bf when undergoing a week of separation, is that he's actually quite attached to me. On wednesday (a day before my family came), he was spending the night at my place. And then he started whining about not being able to see me for a week, and I actually saw a tear in his eyes O_o;;; That kinda freaked me out a bit. But I'm glad to know that he likes to be with me. Now I just need to know if he's got the balls to face my parents.

Anyway, tomorrow's gonna be the rehearsal for the wedding. I need to get some sleep. Dun wanna have huge undereye bags for the big day.

ari 10:54 PM